Update 3 ~

Hey everyone! It’s Sarah here, for your weekly update - sorry I’m late posting :)

Well for the most part; she’s had a fairly good week, she’s hung out with her sisters, and misses you all soooo much!
She has bad days, but also has lots of good moments as well :)
All of the positive messages you have sent her; I’ve passed onto her and she was surprised, but touched deeply <3

She loves you all, and misses you <3 
She doesn’t know when she’ll be back.
She also starts school again tomorrow, so fingers crossed everything goes well and she has a nice day <3 xxx 

~ Sarah xx

Update 2

Why hello to you all again! 

Just a quick little update on how Camilla’s doing. To in which I shall answer; (in my eyes) a little bit better.
She doesn’t completely feel like ‘herself’ again, but she’s getting there.

She would also like to hear from you all :) She misses the usual conversation <3

She will be back in a months time, because she is also stressed right now, so set that countdown :)

And lastly; my dear Anon’s how I haven’t missed you, and I’m glad you have re-evaluated your life choices <3

As for the rest of you all, Camilla and I are proud of your achievements, and keep fighting everything my fellow users :)



Signing off; Sarah 

Update no.1

Hello there; It’s Dreams-dont-end here doing an update on how Camilla is:

I just wanna tell you all that, although it’s only been a few days she does miss you all. For another thing; she isn’t doing very well.
I’m not going into certain specifics, because it isn’t my thing to tell you all, so I will just say she isn’t doing so good. :(

Another thing; I check her blog daily.. which include the inbox.

 Seeing this generally made me angry rather than sad. 

One reason this user is on hiatus at the moment is because the safety net that used to be Tumblr has collapsed. She doesn’t feel as if she can vent her thoughts, reblog stuff, or tell you all hows she is because of stuff like this. I for one; generally wish I had a way to track this person, (or persons) so then I could give them an earful of how fucking angry they’ve made me.

Just because she’s not here you feel as if it give you a free pass to yell your hateful thoughts and misguided opinions? and I’m sorry if this offends anyone.

Saying this, even over the internet could give somebody the final step to ending something precious, but to know this user’s in a bad place anyway and still send this sorta shit. You make me physically sick.

Anon; evaluate your life choices please, because you’re not winning this. I will. I refuse to let you bring people down, look at your actions, and make a change to be a better person. Keep your hateful opinions inside your head like the rest of us, because if there is a next time, I will just ignore your ass, because I’m fed up of repeating myself.

I hope everyone else is doing well, and if you’re not - keep going. <3

Hiatus

  • Hiatus
  • I have to take some time off from tumblr, and while it kills me to say this because tumblr used to feel like home to me, this was my safe place when things got bad for me.
  • And that has changed now, I went on yesterday after not being on for days and i actually found hate that was directed directly at me, and that just made my shitty week that much worse tbh, and that wasn’t what I needed right now.
  • My blog is a hate free blog, both for me and my followers and just because I’m gone for 3-4 days does not mean that people have the right to send hate to me or anyone else. That and I was so shocked by the hate, if I had actually have felt something other than numb then I would have cried my eyes out (that’s going to happen soon, I can feel it.).
  • The reasons why I’m leaving are because my life right now is absolute shit, everything that wasn’t supposed to go wrong, is going wrong, and this has been the week from hell honestly, I’m not making it up. I’m not going to go into so many details but lately I feel like I’m screwing everything up, for others and myself, and I’m still so numb when It comes to myself, I still care about everyone else, just not me right now. That’s the main reason I’m leaving, because if I don’t fix this, if I don’t learn to actually relax and care about myself again then I’m not sure if I’ll ever be okay.
  • I would never try to end my life I swear on that, but lately I’ve been so
  • numb that I’ve wondered what would happen if I wasn’t around (like if I lived alone with no contact to anyone and right now it’s so tempting). But I’ve wondered how easy it would be to hurt myself (I would never actually try, I’m too stubborn to give up).
  • I feel incredibly selfish right now tbh, I feel like I’m letting a lot of people down and I really hate that, but I need to do this.
  • I’m going to miss everyone so much, I love you guys, take care of yourself for me okay?
  • (I’m sending an ask to my friends and the people that I care about here since I think you deserve a prober goodbye).
  • I honestly don’t know when I’ll be back, might be two weeks, might be a month… might be longer than that.
  • I’m sorry that I’m letting you down, that was never my intention.
  • Sincerely
  • Camilla (Otpwhydoyoucare).

floorboardorattic:
That dick-hole Anon needs to lay the fuck off you. Post this publicly, I for one support you and think that Anon's just a hurtful heartless son of a bitch. Stay strong

Of course babes xxx

I just freaking love you, like seriously, you are so fucking beautiful to me, and I don’t just mean how you look, I mean everything is so fucking beautiful about you to me. Don’t change for anyone okay?, because you are absolutely perfect the way you are <3 .. you’re like my own personal savior.. aren’t you <3

But honestly, you have no idea how much I needed to hear this babes, because my week has been shit upon more shit, and this definetly made it a bit better <3.